Tuesday, March 23, 2010

ugh...stress...

Stress is getting to me.  Most of it is good stress (meaning stress resulting from positive changes) that is temporary, but it gets me overanalyzing things, which gets my bad stress going, which...you get the picture.

I'm really excited for my new living situation.  I'm going to be living with three other moho friends in a cute duplex, and saving alot of money at the same time.  Hopefully.  I have to move out by next week, and we have to all get together to sign the new lease before I can move in.  I put down a deposit, and now doubts are arising such as what if someone flakes out and doesn't want to move in...then I'm out the money.  And homeless, or responsible for a much bigger chunk of rent.  I don't have too much stuff, but I don't have a truck, and I'm probably going to have to move during the week when most people are working.  And I feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start. Ugh...I'm sure it will all turn out ok though.

I've kind of been feeling jealous and resentful toward a certain person lately, and my stress is making it flare up even more.  I'm not sure why I can't just let it go.  It's not a person that really matters...it's just an acquaintance, not even a friend.  The funny thing is that this person probably has no idea that I'm feeling resentful toward him.  And if he did, he would think it was weird, since we don't even really have a relationship other than talking a bit here and there.  If it were a friend I wouldn't have any problem talking to them about it. But I don't really feel comfortable doing that with this person. On the other hand, I need to do something, because right now it's just festering and bringing me down. Any suggestions?

2 comments:

Michael said...

I would have no clue how to function day to day if I had no stress. It has become part of my life lol. I hope it all works out well. Plus if one does flake out I know one of the guys has soooooo many moho friends he will be able to find someone to take that spot. :)

Unknown said...

First try to figure out why your jealous, then decide if its really worth dealing with all the stress that brings?

 
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