It's probably a good thing that I feel too blah and unmotivated to do anything stupid. Guess I'll just keep faking it til i make it. But God, if you want to send some happiness my way, I'd sure appreciate it.
GAYS NOT WELCOME
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I have been slowly working my way back. Spending time with missionaries.
Going to Church.
Really valuing what I had lost. I thought it was working. I thou...
9 years ago
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Awe buddy. I'm so sorry your feeling bad. I know just how you feel. Well, I can imagine I guess. I feel that way too a lot, but luckily I don't feel that way now so I can write you a happy thought.
I can't speak for you, but when I feel really down I sometimes think there is nothing at all that I would want to live for, but then I think... What if I could go on a cruise? I have always wanted to go on a cruise. Sure I'm not planning on it happening any time soon. But the odds that it will happen some time in my life are really pretty good aren't they.
I know that is silly and dumb but the truth is that good fun things really are going to happen. To say they aren't is really kind of silly and unrealistic. Of course, on the other hand bad things are going to happen, but when I think back on my life so far I remember the good things a lot more and I would be willing to live through the bad to do the good again...
So I promise that good things will happen. We can't change the fact that we feel like death now, but I bet we will say it was worth it at some point.
Or maybe not... all in all, I think you're great and I hope just knowing I wish you were happy makes you the teeniest bit happier.
Thanks, Aaron. It does help. And I'm glad you're feeling good :)
I do the same thing basically. When I get to think it's just not worth the effort, I think about all the things I would miss if I was gone. I'm such a tech geek/gadget freak that I can't stand missing out on the latest new thing. For example I will reflect in the fact that just a few short years ago iPhones didn't exist with their texting and apps and general coolness.
Then I think about the things in the lives of my friends and families that I would not see. All kinds if exciting events. Nieces and nephews doing cool and fun things
It has worked for me so far. Just hang in there.
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