Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Haven't posted for awhile

So maybe I've come to the point that alot of people come I keep this blog going or not? I went back and re-read my first post where I wrote that I was starting the blog for three reasons:  a way for people to get to know me better, a way for me to document and organize my thoughts, and a way to get to know and/or help other people. Results so far: not sure on the first one, a success on the second one, and possibly a success on the third.  I suppose it has helped people get to know me better, but at the same time that's kind of scary. A good number of people are reading the blog, or at least dropping by, according to the stats. Especially now that it's linked to other people's blogs and it's in the "moho blog directory".  And that's good; that's the point of a blog. I'm not necessarily writing for other people, I'm writing for me (see reason number 2), but alot of people read and don't leave comments, and I want to know what they are thinking. They are getting to know me through my blog, but I've come to realize my blog generally only presents one (mostly negative) side of me. Maybe that's why I haven't posted for a couple of weeks; I don't really have too much to say. I guess I'm kind of censoring myself because I don't want to come across as a whiny negative person. Not sure if that's good or bad. Another reason maybe I haven't posted is because someone left an anonymous comment, that, while 100% true, wasn't very helpful and kind of brought me down...I wish "anonymous" would have let me know who they were and talked a bit more about it. I guess it's kind of scary to put my intimate thoughts down and not know who's commenting on them.  As far as reason number 3, I've kind of gotten to know new people through their blogs...there are a number of blogs that I look forward to reading and commenting on. But I haven't gotten to meet the people behind the blogs, and that's kind of what I hope for. I know alot of people don't want to be known it's all good.


I'm copying Boskers and drawing a cool dotted line so I can put two topics in one post :) Thanksgiving was this past week. Ugh. I have a love/hate relationship with the holidays. I definitely didn't want to do a cliched "what am I thankful for" post. I woke up in a blah mood, wishing I had someone to wake up next to, but I pretty much told myself, "shut the frick's ok to be thankful for things and you could be alot worse off than you are." And it's true...I have a roof over my head, I don't go hungry, I'm healthy, I got my car back, things are going somewhat better with my boss, I have family that loves me, I have at least 4 people that I can consider close friends, and I have other friends/acquaintences that I know are supportive of me. So yeah...I'm going to count my blessings while I have them :)


Ben said...

You finally posted something!

Your dotted line made me smile. Isn't it convenient? :)


I know what you mean about the holidays. I was kind of annoyed all day on Thanks Giving, but once evening came and I was with family and friends, I realized that I have a lot to be thankful for.

Michael said...

You and I know each other pretty well. I still love reading your blog cuz blogs are a place sometimes we can express ourselves better than even talking or through a text.

I love you and consider you one of my good friends. I sometimes get so busy with life and just forget about my friends till I need them. Anytime you need me please speak up. I am sorry I didn't chat much with you today.

I also know that urge to wake up next to someone. I thought I was going to have it and I was so wrapped up in it that I didn't realize hey its just not working. So I don't know how to help to much in that department. Love you bud

JonJon said...

Maybe someday we can share a sandwich at Grilled Cheese Grill on the magic school bus.

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