Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Catching up

Summer has been pretty good to me, I've been keeping my demons at bay by focusing on myself and my family.  I've gotten into photography lately and have taken a bunch of road trips to combine some of my favorite things:  taking pictures, being outdoors, geocaching, seeing new places, and being with the kidddos.  I've been spending alot of time by myself doing things I enjoy too:  reading, watching movies, etc.  I feel like I've distanced myself from superficial people that bring me down, but probably unintentionally distanced myself from friends too, just to avoid getting hurt and because I don't really trust anyone emotionally any more.  I forgot to take my happy pills with me on one of my road trips and was doing just fine without them, so I figured I would detox myself from them and see what happened.  I told myself if I found myself crying for no reason or hiding from people in the bathroom that I would go back on that I'm back to the daily grind of a job I don't really like and not much time for myself, let's just say I'm going to go back on them :)  I did apply for a new job, though, and thought the interview went well...still waiting to hear back from them tho.  I hope I get it, because it would be a needed change.  Lonliness catches up sometimes, but like I said I'm not going to write many negatives in my blog anymore...don't want people to get the wrong idea about me or feel sorry for me.  I wish I could say I had an active social life with lots of close friends and did exciting things with them every weekend, but it wouldn't be's all good though, I'm making my own fun lately and learning to enjoy being with myself.  And of course, I have the kiddos to drive me insane, but keep me sane at the same time...if I didn't have them, I wouldn't be here anymore :)


El Genio said...

Congratulations on the new hobby. I've been meaning to get more into photography sometime myself, I just haven't found the way to do it yet.

Anonymous said...

Welcome back. I've missed you.

Anonymous said...

I *heart* photography too. We can we see some of the pics you've taken?

Btw, good luck on your new job interview. I hope you get the job. :)



P.S. thanks for your comment in my blog :)

darkdrearywilderness said...

@Mike...I miss you too!

@Andy...thanks for checking out my blog! Nope, didn't get the job :( I post alot of the pics I take on my facebook page, but not everyone who reads my blog is my facebook friend. So maybe I'll post some on here sometime soon :)

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